Lilac
Thunder
with every fibre of my first person singular
i reach out towards the love that lies ahead
to future blows
and to love itself
- peter kral, in search of the essence of place
Settle down
I am the cunt of the universe
I am the clit of the world
I am the eternal universal orgasm
I am the stars of the galaxy
I am the stars of your lids
And I twinkle I twinkle on you my shiny crazy diamond
I am the sigh of the man fast asleep in the night
I am the scream of the woman giving birth
I am the gasp of the child sat alone in his room
I am all around, yes I am all around
I am the anus of Jesus
I am the cock of Christ
Release me in the physicality of his being
And with a million dead bodies
Their unabandoned gasp
I swim through the night like a ghost in a graveyard
I sing for you as you work at your desk
I sing for you with your headphones on
I sing for you as you walk through this city
So you settle down yes you now settle down
Why don't you just settle down
How about you just settle down
You fuckin' now settle down
You fuckin' now settle down
Cliches and idioms
Hey why are you looking at me like that
Come over here I'd like to have a chat
We'll fall in love
You fallen down right from above
We'll keep running till our legs are sore
Legs are pumping to that open door
Unashamed
We're gunna play this stupid game
Well the ball's now in your court
You've caught yourself between two stools
In a battle not yet fought
Let's just hope we don't get caught
Pull the wool down over both my eyes
Charm me sweetly let sleeping dogs lie
Unperturbed
This will not be disturbed
Keep my eyes unpeeled let tale unwind
And I'll keep thinking you're a different kind
I'll try to hide
My stupid open mind
With the benefit of doubt
I don't want to figure you out
Because behind every cloud
The sun is ready to shine out
You're a wolf in sweet sheep's wooden clothes
I think I bit off more than I can chew
Come clouds of doubt
Cut the lies and let it out
Out of step
I go backwards and forwards
While you step from left to the right
And I feel so inwards and outwards
That I'm out of step with you
You treat me like I'm an effigy
Demanding from me an apology
You speak as though I'm the apogee
Of all you despise
When did we grow apart
Our minds so separate
And why is it so hard
To find common ground
I go backwards and forwards
While you step from left to the right
And I feel so inwards and outwards
That I'm out of step with you
And you'll say onwards and upwards
While I'll go from right to the left
And you'll feel so inwards and outwards
That I'm out of step with you
Your world is not the one I see
The world as it is is all you need
But inertia onto entropy
Your world will fall apart
How could you think like that?
To feel so differently
The world's just not like that
It seems to me
I go backwards and forwards
While you step from left to the right
And I feel so inwards and outwards
That I'm out of step with you
And you'll say onwards and upwards
While I'll go from right to the left
And you'll feel so inwards and outwards
That I'm out of step with you
The wings of history burn
The fallen bird it screams
And over it we will dance
But we're all out of time
Lilac thunder
I live in a city with my fags queers and booze in a derelict ruin coffee stained petals strewn
My ear to the skin of my bottle cushion drum hearing evening rhythms shuffling in the morning going strong
And I sing a mmm falalala and hum a world numbing ecstasy song
And I wake and kneel and pray for you in a morning smoke velvety hue
If time's a drone then you're the note
If time's a flow then with you I float
On flower's stem I see you grow
With petals strewn my world you sew
I live in a novel I walk through its words I squat in its pages and I sing out its verse
Written with rose blood by a gladioli quill these poems I breathe in oh and these spaces I dwell
And I hear a mmm falala I hear a song with a lilac-y smell
Oh and I feel as though it must be you and you're casting your ecstasy spell
I feel this song it fills the room
I bleed and sweat its lilac bloom
And as I delve into its sweet perfume
The plot unfurls and it renders true
In words and a hum a song for the world
In words and a hum a song for the world
And I wake and kneel and pray for you in a morning smoke velvety hue
And I wake and kneel and pray for you in a morning smoke velvety hue
Bleary-eyed footsteps in waves they fade in their own echo
I hear a whisper that falls in shade from which out you grow
This concrete mattress to which my body is towed
Hit by a lilac thunder my petals strewn
Velvet petals
Read my body explore my words
Contradictions in every verse
My skin a landscape a map that skews
An island of liars powers undue
Flow in my stream unclotted pass
My blood my angels queer lilac class
As we unfettered compared
To the close-minded the bitter scared
Look at me don't look at them
With me your freedom you'll reclaim
Come in my body we'll linger here
Your velvet petals will repair
Ribbon around a bomb
A book like a tome down here
Lofty and dumb in the deep of a well
Still chasing a trace already gone
I laugh to pass away
You are a bunch of words writ in tow
To passing thoughts cast breeze blows strong
My mind like a tree swaying
A dance for our lost deed
Hold on hold on hold on
I tie a ribbon around a bomb
With a feather of a swan
And I try to justify everything
Don't watch my head explode
Don't watch my head explode
Don't watch me don't watch me don't watch me
Don't look at me
Hold on hold on hold on
I will not take long
Hold on hold on hold on
I'm almost gone
Is there another way to go
Homme fatale
Confiscate your feelings from me I just cannot be trusted
I'll break your heart like many before I'll break your heart into pieces
You're a boy it was once a girl I don't know what the fuck I'm doing
I feel your pain but still I don't change I think I might be a bad person
I do my worst when I'm trying my best I think I might have a problem
You treat me so well you give me your smile but I can't help but be this person
Yet I know it all
Yet still I don't change at all
They call me homme fatale
With people's hearts I prey upon
Whatever I will say I'll stay the same
First person singular
I am a singer songwriter in my books coffee candlelit room
Lonely words that wait to be found by crumpled petal plucking plectrum
My calloused used fingertips singing notes that give colour to grey
I sing in the first person singular but I don't know who I'm singing to
I don't know who I'm singing to
Apollo and Dionysus
A strange mysterious thing
The world around turning
And Dionysus sing
And you'll hear music's sting
But it will not take long
Oh it will not take long
And hear Apollo's lyre
A song which will not tire
A life you will aspire
Tis sung upon the mire
But it will not take long
Oh it will not take long
Life elsewhere
I'm lost in a
Life elsewhere
A velvet
Petal
Fallen upon the floor
